I'm still alive, but I'm barely breathing

I'm hanging by a thread on what I'm supposed to do.
I'm fighting to feel Him, but I'm not.
I know I need Him.
"I'm still alive, but I'm barely breathing."
I'm sick of faking that I'm ok.
I'm...I'm not really sure what else to do at this point.
I know He's here.
Remey.