while browsing, i ran into this. which cracks me up, because i own both necklaces shown in this photograph. :) the camera & eiffel tower, anyways.

i love my gaudy necklaces. maybe ill take some pictures and post them.

i wish my "someday's" were guaranteed.
in that case, this is me someday.

Today.

i feel like my suitcase is getting smaller.

1 day.

i remember when we were counting down in the 60's.

:)

phone call with grams:
"can you believe i'll see you tomorrow?!?"
"no, not really. in fact, i may need to pack another suitcase. i already have 4."
"oh, grams. papa will definitely like that, won't he?"
"..."

:)

loves.
remey.

Drew.

top songs that describe my life at this point...hmm...

Forever & Always- Taylor Swift
Breathe- Taylor Swift
Tell Me Why- Taylor Swift

am i the only one that sees a pattern here?! i swear, the girl can read my mind.

drew(yup, ren, this should work rather nicely, i think)...gah. if i could only find the courage and the words to say.

"cause it's not like you to walk away in the middle of a song."

'nuff said.
remey.

summer's never looked the same.

Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain
Nothing to lose but everything to gain
Reflecting now on how things could've been
It was worth it in the end

September- Daughtry

(:

I guess when I can't think of a title, I make it a smiley face. Or when I'm just feeling happy. Yup.

School. DONE. FINALLY!
Graduation went well. A couple instances to remember...

That awkward moment right after we're announced freshman when I hoot and holler and everyone stares at me for a few seconds before they laugh and clap...

"WIAA and MVCS proudly announces this class of now freshmans."
Me: *arm pump* "WHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
....
clap. laugh. stare. clap.

short yet very precise thought process...
*i guess i probably should've waited...*

Or, when I almost tripped down the isle, cried when our leaving-teachers presented their speeches, and hugged all the guys and girls screaming, "WE MADE IT!!!"

Or when my Dad brought me roses.

:)

Overall, it was good. Really good. Sad. Exciting. One of those moments when you can totally imagine music playing in the background when every one's yelling and crying and hugging.

I love you guys.

Maui, Wednesday. Wow. Crazysauce.
I'll miss y'all like crazy. Not even joking. It's one of those times where I wish I wasn't going for so long, but then I do, but then I don't. Gah.

As for this weekend, nothing. Packing. Possible baseball game tomorrow in Anacortes for a rather nice guy in my class and their family. Yes.
Umm...shopping? Saturday? Friends? Most likely. Yes.

More Maui preparation...i.e. addresses for postcards/goodies, packing, letters, etc.

I can't believe it's summer. Wow. And I can't believe I haven't seen some of you for like, ever. It's tragic, actually.

And for you, the person who probably will never read this and who remains unnamed until we can think of a proper nickname...
Tell me why. I'm really confused.

Loves.
Remey.

when it all takes shape...

graduation. tomorrow.

wow.

i feel...slightly old. even though most of you who are reading this are most likely older than me by a couple years.

still.
i feel old.

it's one of times where you think it'll never happen, but when it does...it's weird. it's like everything takes a different form around you. you realize you're actually growing up. getting older. one step closer. 3 steps from yesterday.

3 steps from yesterday...hmm.
if i ever form a band, that's definitely the name. :)

latest news...like literally, 10 seconds ago...
mom: RUMOR! well, meaning it might not happen...
me: what?!
mom: they might offer a french course next year:)

BOOOOYA!!!

if you're still interested in coming to my graduation ceremony and punch/cake afterwords and the viewing-of-boards(best part, yes?), it's tomorrow(thursday) night at 7pm at the church across from school.

Loves:)
Remey.

Finally.

Presentation. Done. Oh. My. Goodness.
It was actually easy. The whole 30 minute lunch period before? Not so much.
We were all freaking out and I was surprised I even ate anything.

But hey, I'm still alive.

Me and the dude after me walked over to the high school campus, our speeches/boards in our shaking hands.
“I’m gonna die.”
“Nahh, I’M gonna die.”
“Well, I guess we’ll see which one of us survives.”

We both did. Obviously.
Hallelujah. No joke.

On to graduation. :)

Which I think it's weird that we have to be there on Thursday at 6:15, 45 minutes before it starts. Weird. Oh well. We’ll take what we can get, I guess.
And I’m leading the singing and music. I like singing.

“Be the change you want to see in the world.”
Loves.
Remey.

tomorrow.

algebra exam. history exam. warm weather(hopefully). dress. sandals. huge presentation at precisely 12:30PM. peace tea. big flower ring. finishing care package for someone special. change.

God rest my soul.

Thinking of You:)

yes, reney...i was extremely bored...had a camera... was dreaming of paris...thinking of you...and it was sunny:)

Be My Escape...

I’ve given up on giving up slowly
I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me
apart from this whole world
that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention
is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house
all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go,
promise I’m going because

I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut
that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You
I’m begging You
I’m begging You
to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and
I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and
I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m
every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace
is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house
all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go,
promise I’m going because

I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency
is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You
I’m begging You
I’m begging You
to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to
live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You
to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give
what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house
all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and
that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go,
promise I’m going because

I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut
that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You
I’m begging You
I’m begging
You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were You

Relient K, you've never been so right.

Someday...

for ren. because someday, we're going.









hang in there, darlin. stay beautiful. <3
loves.
remey.

:)

the joys of having older friends?

they seem to understand anything and everything.
they've seen it all.
"it's you and me against the world."
sooner or later, they become like you're older siblings.
they have your back.
they're someone you can trust.
they're someone you can run to.
they're someone you can cry on.

reney, i love you to pieces.

:)
loves.
remey.

50th. Hmm.

Happy 50th post. Wow. I'm thinking I need to post more. Something like that.
But I'm the type of person that needs inspiration.

What can a 3 day 8th grade trip show you? WOW. A lot, as you guessed. More than you could imagine. It was weird, it was fun, it was annoying.
It brings out the worst in people, and sometimes the most spectacular things in others.

Our 8th grade class took our official class trip from Wednesday 12:30PM till Friday 3:15PM. Went to Lake Retreat, on a lake(obviously), complete with a lodge, and a camp that spreads half way around the lake. Running space. Crying space. Hiding space.

It's crazy...the feelings that come to you when you see a girl hitting on your best friend since kindergarten, when you're losing your friend, when you finally fix things with another. When you kayak in a lake while it's raining. Talk 3 hours with someone you haven't talked to for 3 months. Take a chance and zip line down a hill that looks GINORMOUS from the top.

Again, what can a three day 8th grade trip show you?

1.) It's never too late to forgive someone.
Long story short, I seem to run into people that either a.) hate my guts, or b.) are jealous and tell people interesting things that just happen to not be true about me. Lovely. So for the past couple months, I've been clashing with a certain someone, and it's been tense. We try to ignore each other, but when we're with each other, we fake that there's nothing going on. That every thing's OK. That we're not hurting(sound familiar? you have no idea...).
It's bad. So frankly, I was sick of it. I really wanted to know what I had done to this chick, why in the world she hated me, talked smack behind my back, y'know, the whole drill. Our class has been pretty close to drama free this whole 8th grade year, of course there's been some, but this was the first thing that I'd really been sucked into. And I hate conflict. So I wanted to end it. But honestly, if someone lies about me, hurts me, I don't go down easily. I won't just let them walk all over me. More on that later...
Anyways, we hadn't really been getting along, and I was sick of it. But we were at the same time. It's complicated.
(I'm starting to see this isn't going to be a "long story short" type of thing...)
So we had devotions this morning and we had to have a partner, and I was sitting by her. "What the heck." I thought. Maybe it'll help.
So we all moved around the lodge, we went into a separate room, did the devotional, and then prayed out loud as the devotional said to, so...so we started praying.

Previously, the beginning of the devotional had us write out a prayer to God.
Mine looked something like this:
"God, I love you. I know you're here with me. And I know I've messed up. I know that me and this other girl have messed up, and that we're rude to each other, and neither one of us wants to be the one to talk to each other. But...but I know I need to."

***The night before, 2 of the teachers read a readers theater about forgiveness. Wow.***

"I know I need to, because I want to please you. And going around and pretending it's all ok between me and her doesn't do anything to help this situation. Lord...give me the words. Please help her not to get even more mad at me."

So...we prayed. She prayed first, so I could gain courage and whatnot. After she was done, I prayed and pretty much confessed out loud how I'd been really lame towards this girl and not appreciated her as a friend and yada yada yada...
The weird part? She did the same. She totally said how she had hurt me too, been rude, etc. I was sitting there with my mouth hanging open. Wow.
We both laughed, close to tears, and asked God for the strength and ability and help to erase everything that had happened.
You see...I didn't think that that would ever happen. Ever.
I always pictured myself apologizing to her somehow, but not before my Father.
I always pictured myself saying that, but I always imagined her getting mad and storming off for some reason.
Now, I'm not saying it's all perfect. We're both working on things, and hopefully it gets better. But it'll never be perfect. I'm just thankful. Extremely. Wow.

2.) Things change. People change. You have to go with it. You don't really have a choice.
So...drama sort of came back this week in our class. Wow. Like, the last week of school. Ridiculous, yes? Anyways...it did. Aside from what I talked about previous to this, what I was involved in, there was more. Mostly flirting. Annoying talking. People sitting outside our rooms, in the hallways, talking for like 3 hours straight. It's probably too bad for them that we could hear every word.
In the midst of 3 days, I pretty much saw one of my best friends being ripped away from me. He turned on me. Ignored me. The whole deal. Boys will be boys, I suppose.
And girls will be girls.
There's not much else to say.
Things will change. I guess God only wanted us to be friends from the first day of school we met(kinder garden)till these past few days when SHE showed up?
I guess so.
....
Gah. If you're wondering any further, you'll have to talk to me. I hate thinking about it.
Moving on...

3.) God's love and peace is UNSTOPPABLE.
Throughout these 3 days, SOMEHOW, God brought me back to that place of unexplainable peace. Lead me beside still waters, you could say.
I'm freaked. I'll just be honest, because I know that whoever reads this won't make fun of me for being freaked(hopefully..). But I am. I'm freaked for this Sunday night, I'm freaked for high school, I'm freaked for exams, for presentations Tuesday, for graduation...the whole shabang.
I'm scared.
And after weeks, months, a year at the most of keeping those feelings in, it's not good. It's pretty much like a bomb ready to go off. The last straw. Boom.
God gave me peace.
And He still is. And I pray that He continues to throughout this next week.

Goodness.
There's much, MUCH more I could blog about. I've told some of you that, not even a minute ago. But I can't seem to find the words.

Maui: 12 days.
Graduation/Last Day: 6 days.

Stay beautiful.
Loves,
Remey.