Saturday, December 3, 2011

News. News. News.

How long will it last?

So I realize that I haven’t written in forever. Oh here, I mean. Oh goodness, I’ve written. For school papers, essays, assignments, to-do lists, song lyrics, journal entries, prayers, you name it. I’ll never stop writing. That’s for sure.

But on here…that’s a different story.

Life’s been busy. I can’t decide whether I should keep this going or not. I’m not really sure I write things on here that are helpful to others, or if it’s technically just a journal for me to get out what I need to say or what I’m feeling during that time. I’m just not really sure. I’m pretty sure I haven’t had one entry for the month of November alone, maybe not even October. I’ll have to look at that.
Anyways, thoughts? Email me. Talk to me. Comment. I don’t really care. Let me know what you think, if it even matters to you at all, or if you would miss “A Glimpse Of….” In any aspect at all.

Hmm. Okay. We’ll see, then.

Aside from that, I guess I should let you all know how things are. B-U-S-Y. Not to the point of overwhelming, but busy. It was overwhelming, and it probably will be next month once the lovely week of finals rolls around. My first week of high school finals. Yippee.

Although I haven’t been on here for a significant amount of time, I do remember things that I’ve written in the past. For example, I remember writing about my worries and fears of high school. Being scared out of my mind for my first high school season of volleyball, the freshman hike, and frankly, just a NEW beginning.
Looking back, I see myself as silly. SILLY. My word. But I do understand why I was so scared. Some of those things listed above were some of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Really. I never would have thought I could do it, but I did. It’s amazing looking back and seeing how much God was working in my life during that worry period. It was horrible. I couldn’t sleep, didn’t eat much, couldn’t focus. If any of you know me enough, you know this happens regularly when I’m nervous or scared or confused about things. My whole body reacts in weird ways and…yes, it’s just bad. But that time is gone. And I’m glad. I’m glad that it happened, but I’m glad it’s over.

But high school has been amazing. The past…3ish months of my life have been some of the greatest, the most challenging, and the most confusing. You may think that the confusion and challenge totally weighs out the great, but the confusion and challenge were actually a huge part of the great, weird enough.

The past months I’ve learned so much about myself, about my friends, about my fears, my worries, and about God. In some ways I would love to relive the past months, but in other ways, I’m glad they’re gone. And I know that can be said for any time of my life. I’ll always have regrets, but I’m always going to love things that have happened.

So that’s where I am. Loving freshman year, loving my friends that God has blessed me with, loving the growth I’m seeing in almost every aspect in my life. I feel like I’m standing still while everything else is traveling at 100mph around me. Things are changing…really fast. But I still see God working. And I’m striving to keep that in focus.